‘You can still be who you wish you is, it aint happened yet and that’s what intuition is’-Kanye, I Wonder
I always knew that I was destined to be elsewhere, and yet, I’m still here, in Cleveland, not exactly my favorite place. Evidently it’s for a reason, so no real complaints, but I do wonder what life will be like elsewhere.
I always tried to leave Cleveland with a sense of urgency, for many different reasons. As I get older, I know that when it’s meant for us to leave, we will leave.
Cleveland is all I’ve known. Born and raised here, educated here K-16, and now preparing to do my masters here (well possibly, more than likely). I always wonder what life will be like on the other side of all of this, on the other side of realizing my dreams.
Yes, leaving Cleveland is one of my dreams.
Cleveland will always be here, should I ever want to move back.
But I wonder what life will be like, outside of Cleveland. Away from my family.
I got a small taste of it when I had moved to VA for college. It was short-lived, because I dropped out and moved back home. VA wasn’t my cup of tea as an 18-year-old.
I dream of raising our kids elsewhere. In a perfect world, I’d love to round-up my in-laws and my immediate family and have all of them living in a 3 hour radius on the east coast. But I know realistically, my parents will probably remain in Ohio. Mom in law may move south again (who knows).
I wonder what it’ll be like to have our own little family away from our families. I wonder what it’ll be like on the other side of all my dreams.
My dreams of obtaining a master’s degree and becoming a counselor/advisor.
My dreams of K & I moving out-of-state (only God knows where) and beginning the next phase of our careers and education.
My dreams of teaching. Hubby’s dreams of his career in sports. Our dreams of raising awesome kids wherever.
I wonder what life will be like on the other side of our dreams.
I will say, right now, my current job? A dream.
How does it feel to cross something else off my bucket list?
So now I wonder…
What will life be like on the other side of the rest of our dreams, especially dreaming of life elsewhere?
I’m sure it’ll be scary. I’m sure I’ll be homesick for the place that I don’t even consider home. I’m sure I’ll miss being near family. But K is my immediate family, and to have him by my side will be AMAZING. Trying, I’m sure. Tough moments, tears even? Maybe.
Soon, I won’t have to wonder about that dream.
I can’t wait for my dreams to come true. Because I know they will.