Posted in Empowerment

It’s All In Your Head

I’ve finally, FINALLY realized why I write. And how I write. And who I write for. And, it’s caused a little apprehension each time I push the ‘new post’ button and begin to type. It is even more nerve-wracking when I hit the publish button.

Will someone be able to relate?

Will I be looked at funny?

Will I be judged?

And it takes a ton of courage sometimes, to push that publish post button.

But I realize I’m doing myself a great disservice if I just write what folks want to hear. I’m also doing others a disservice.

There are a few books I’ve refrained from writing at the moment. Because of the pressure that comes along with being a Christian who writes.

Suddenly your life is on trial. It’s an open book for all to read. Even if you don’t disclose every little detail, your every move is watched. Every post on facebook is scrutinized. And even every tweet/retweet is read into.

It is enough to make an introvert like me hyperventilate.

I realized enough was enough one day when someone questioned what I put up on a status. And I was silly enough to defend/respond.

I vowed that would be the last time I did it.

Part of being a writer involves reading. There are lots of great bloggers and writers that I look up to, and ironically, it’s because they’re not afraid to be themselves. They are human. They’re far from perfect. They own up to their mistakes. But they are unapologetically themselves. And people love them for it.

And here I am, comparing myself to them.

“Oh my goodness. I can’t post this. What will people think?”

“I can’t retweet that. People will stop reading what I write if this has a curse word in it.”

The pressure has gotten to be too much.

Then I realized that it’s all in my head.

The pressure comes from within. I know who I am. I know where I am in my life. So does God. And yet, he still gives me words to encourage. To empower. To inspire. I write with the goal of sharing myself and encouraging myself, and yet, I constantly hear from others how much it helped them.

So, why am I tripping? My worth isn’t caught up in the number of people who read my blog. It isn’t in what others’ think of me.

How many times have you discounted what you have to offer because you felt like you didn’t measure up to someone else’s standards of ‘good enough’?

How many times have you second-guessed yourself and your testimony because you knew it was far from perfect?

How many times have you kept quiet because you were ashamed?

I understand. Because that’s been me forever.

But someone out there needs for you to get out of your head. Stop thinking so hard and just DO. SAY. BE.

Someone out there needs to hear what you have to say.

Someone out there needs to see what you do.

Chances are, there are others out there saying “Oh my goodness, me too!”

There will always be critics. There will always be people who don’t get it.

But the people who don’t get it? Your message/story is not for them.

And that pressure you apply to yourself because you’re imperfect, because you make mistakes, because you don’t have it all together?

It’s all in your head. God knows. God sees. God hears. And wants you to share yourself anyways.

How else can others get free if you stay in your head?

Step out and be brave. So others can be brave too. And be free.

But you must liberate yourself first. And know that it’s okay to be yourself. It’s okay to be YOU.

You’re uncommon for a reason. Because, there are others out there who are also uncommon and need to know they’re not alone.

So go ahead. Be free to be YOU. And stop telling yourself stories that are merely fairy tales. Because there’s no such thing as a perfect human. It’s an oxymoron. It’s a lie.

Be You.

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So, FYI…I’m FINALLY releasing my book this year. As of now, the release date is slated for May 2014. More info will be forthcoming! But, this blog entry was definitely a preview of what the book will be like!

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Happy New Years…ready, set GO!

Happy New Years everyone!

Hope 2014 is treating you thusfar…just wanted to do a quick update.

For the first time in YEARS I’m not doing a year-end/previous year recap. Lots of great things happened and some not so great things happened but most of all it was a year of GROWTH. And I want to keep that going…it’s just too much to recap. But my family grew, as we welcomed our son 🙂 We moved, and other life changes occurred. All in all, I’m grateful to see another year.

That being said? I’m starting off this year like never before. I created a 30 days of Gratitude Challenge group on facebook and have a blog as well that gets updated once a week for group members. 35 group members and myself are keeping a gratitude journal for the month of January, listing 5 things we are grateful for daily in it, and then sharing some with the group. This changed my life when I began doing it back during the Spring/Summer of 2012 and I wanted to begin the new year by giving thanks and re-establishing gratitude as a daily habit.

I’m also participating in 2 other challenge groups on facebook, 30 Days of Hustle, in which each of the group members commit to one goal for 30 days and do whatever necessary to reach that goal. My goal is to write the first 3 chapters of my book by the end of this month. I knew I would need help with that goal, so I joined the My 500 words group as well. Each day members are to write 500 words minimum. It’s designed to help us establish writing as a regular practice, and become better writers. It’s helped me tremendously in writing my book. I’ve just about finished my first chapter, although it’s a VERY rough draft.

I have other things going on that I can’t wait to share here, as soon as I’m able to. I am very busy and it’s a good thing…between job hunting, raising my son, taking care of a household/husband, and the projects I’ve listed above? Yeah. Lots of good things going on.

I will say I’m doing things that have been in the works for at least 5 years now, and I just decided to stop talking about it and just DO it. The key for me is to just do it before I can talk myself out of it. I’m a dreamer but I’m also a realist. And my realist side often stops me from chasing dreams. It’s been an ongoing problem for years now…but I’ve finally decided to let the desire of wanting to realize my dreams, outweigh all the ‘realist’ concerns/worries. Worries/Concerns become excuses. Excuses end up blocking your dreams and your dreams eventually die.

2014 has begun. Your dreams are sitting there, waiting for you to pick them up and run with them, tirelessly, until you achieve them.

Failure is almost guaranteed to be an obstacle on the way. But that is all it is, an obstacle. It doesn’t define your dreams. Not in the least.

Are you ready to LIVE the life you were designed to live? If so, let’s do this!

Ready…set…GO!