Posted in Life, Spirituality

2018, Thank U, Next!

Thank U Next is a song by Ariana Grande (that I absolutely LOVE btw) is a song where Ariana thanks her Ex beaus and talks about what they’ve taught her.

All of that could be said for 2018 for me. Whew. I’ve learned so much and grown so much from all that I’ve gone through this year.
I’ve laughed, loved, lived, and cried a LOT. I’ve experienced MANY lows and MANY highs, and I can say I’m honestly ending this year on a HIGH.

I won’t even run down the list of things that I’ve done/experienced/witnessed this year. It’s a LONG list. I’ve told my mom and a few others that it feels like I’ve lived two years in this one and life can be summed up in two seasons…BD and AD (Before Divorce and After Divorce).

So I wanna say Thank U, Next to 2018…I’m so grateful for all that you’ve taught me, all that I’ve learned and experienced. I’m SO much stronger, wiser for all that I’ve been through.

2019 is looking amazing and feeling amazing already, not because I’m wishing 2018 was over…nahhh I can’t even say that. The latter half has been amazing in SO many ways. I’ve learned SO much about not just life or others but myself as well. I’ve got work to do on me but cheers to being aware and being gracious with myself in the process while I heal.

I’m legit excited about what 2019 will bring…2018…it’s been real.

Thank U, Next!

Posted in Empowerment, Life, purpose

Before I Let Go…

When I sat down to write, I just said a prayer that my words would be those of comfort, healing and peace…because it’s what I want for myself!

What happens when you end up in a place you NEVER saw yourself?
You let go of the life you thought you were going to have and embrace where you are now.

For the last couple of years that has been where I am. And I’m ending this year no differently. I’m once again in a new city, a second year teacher,  and it’s nothing like my move to Houston in SO many ways. Atlanta is its’ own place. And boy has it been an adventure.

One thing I’ve realized, I’ve dealt with alot of anger over the last 18 months. Alot of sadness.

And after entering a rough patch, I have decided it’s officially time to let go. Time to let go of the narrative of what I’ve believed in the past about myself.

It’s time to let go of limiting beliefs. It’s time to let go of the lies, of whatever doesn’t serve me.

Time to let go of the life I thought I was going to have. Time to let go of the life I thought I was worthy of.

Time to embrace where I am now and the life I’m meant to have.

But before I let go…

Let me fondly remember where I’ve been and the growth that has happened as a result.

Let me be reminded that I am more of my authentic self than I’ve ever been thanks to the valleys I’ve found myself in. I could not appreciate the peaks if I’d never ended up in the valleys. The valleys are where I found out who I really was, where I developed character, where my strength grew. Where the words came pouring out of me to help others become more of themselves and heal the broken places.

Before I let go…let me look back fondly and express gratitude for where I’ve been. All of that led me to right here.

Somehow my purpose and destiny is directly tired to the places of my deepest hurt, the lowest valleys.

Before I let go, let me be reminded that the bad was also accompanied by the good and that letting go doesn’t mean you forget. Letting go means you forgive, you hold on to the good and release whatever doesn’t serve you.

So as 2018 wraps up, it’s officially time to let go.

It may be gradual. I may have to let go a little at a time.

But either way, I’m letting go.